“What shall I write about today?” I asked Belle.
“Write about Emily and me making a house in the shed and making a TV out of the cardboard box that the wine came in.”
It’s a rather sad fact that when I am feeling calm and relaxed and not overloaded with work (like I am now), that my brain goes completely blank, totally devoid of literary inspiration. If I sit down at the laptop with a whole evening in front of me to spare, I just can’t think of anything more interesting than the fact that the tasty snacks I won in a competition arrived today, resulting in my eating six Cadbury’s Turkish biscuits for my lunch.
Now if I was sitting down at the beginning of a busy day, knowing I had other deadlines to meet, I’d be bursting with ideas. Sometimes in the supermarket, when I should be concentrating on remembering to buy fruit and vegetables and not just jaffa cakes and gin, I find myself so distracted by a brilliant idea or an overhead conversation that I have to stop mid biscuit aisle and write things down on scraps of paper I find in my bag.
I guess I am just one of those people who is most productive when under pressure. When I’m busy it’s like I breed good ideas – the tasks bouncing around inside my head give birth to more and more tasks, spiralling out of control until I have filled page after page of my notebooks with lists of ‘Interesting Things I Could Do When I Have Some Free Time.’ I really should be grateful for some peace and quiet inside my head – I’m forever complaining about my overactive mind – yet I feel strangely floaty and surreal without the whirling mass of thoughts to weigh me down and give me substance.
As boringly self-indulgent as this post is becoming, I don’t think writing about Belle’s shed house is going to rescue it.
I ask Bee instead.
“What shall I write about Bee, I can’t think of anything.”
Probably best just to accept that this evening is not going to be hugely productive words wise, and do something more suited to my still mind, like watching back to back episodes of Come Dine With Me.
Ooh I know! I will add a useful P.S. reminding people who haven’t already to vote for me in the MAD blog awards. That will give the post a sense of purpose, even if it hasn’t turned out to be the best example of why you should vote for me.
P.S. If you haven’t already, please consider voting for me in the MAD blog awards. I’ll let you have one of my special Turkish biscuits* if you do. Thank you!
*Biscuits available for collection only. Please phone ahead to check availability. Number of biscuits left at time of writing – two.