I’ve been really struggling with my focus over the last few weeks and am slightly concerned that I may have some sort of adult ADHD. Normally I’m pretty flighty, but today has been ridiculous. Work has gone something like this:
10am: Open Twitter. Worry that I’m not interesting enough, tweet a bit of random nonsense.
10.02am: Open blog analytics to see how much traffic comes from Twitter. Worry that my traffic sources aren’t diverse enough.
10.04am: Ask friends how to increase traffic. Set up Stumble Upon account. Start to read article about making the best use of Stumble Upon but decide I don’t have time. Check emails. Open another tab but immediately forget why.
10.13am: Start reading article about link building. Check all external blog links. Decide to launch link building campaign but then change mind.
10.17am: Worry that blog will never be awesome. Check ebay for nearby ottomans.
10.20am: Check emails and worry about lack of link building campaign. Wonder if I should make a living instead by writing other people’s dating profiles. Browse available URLs for new business. Get as far as checkout and abandon purchase.
You see what I mean? It’s not a style of work conducive to productivity. I’m not saying I need to start stockpiling brain health supplements or anything, but it’s kind of annoying.
After several hours of this I’m feeling exhausted and have only done about half an hour of paid work. My head hurts from the heady mix of adrenalin and constant frowning and all I want to do is lie face down in some grass. I decide to do a test to see if I have adult ADHD. A quick Google of symptoms suggests things like forgetfulness, mood swings, repeatedly starting but not finishing tasks, risky behaviour and lack of motivation.
You can do the test here, if you dare.
My results are in…
OK, that doesn’t look so bad. It’s probably out of 100 right?
Oh, apparently not.
“You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort,” the quiz reminds me, “or a recommendation for treatment. However, it may be likely beneficial for you to seek further clarification about a possible diagnosis of ADHD or ADD from a physician or a trained mental health professional soon.”
Soon. Not just soon, but soon.
I would seek help, but to be honest I’m not sure I have the time. I have links to build and ottomans to buy.
Do you ever worry about your attention span?