The one with the tears of joy

Do you remember a few weeks ago when I got my contraceptive implant taken out? You may not have wanted to know about it, but I told you anyway, and there you were, stuck with it.

I’d been wondering for some time about the impact it had been having on my emotional and physical health, having had it for six years, and I wanted to give you an update, to let you know if I’ve been feeling any different.




I feel like a different person. Seriously. Aside from the fact that I want to have sex with pretty much everyone I see (it did say it could suppress your libido, but this is ridiculous…), aside from that, I just feel like ME again. I’ve always tended to be the jolly one of the family, and the growing anxiety and nagging melancholy I’ve felt over the last year or so has felt all wrong.

But now..

Now I am like a ray of sunshine in my own life! See? I just used an exclamation mark! What’s the matter with me?!

Yesterday I was in the car, windows down, listening to some music, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I could feel every drum beat in my arms and legs, and the noise of the musician’s hand sliding up and down the neck of the guitar felt like someone running their fingers up and down my spine. For a moment I swear I felt tears of joy pricking the corners of my eyes.

Quite bizarre.

Plus I haven’t made a single list in at least a fortnight. ‘So what?’ I say to myself (out loud, in a slightly hysterical way), ‘If something is important I’m sure someone will remind me!’

This evening I am quite looking forward to the six-hour drive to the Lake District tomorrow, and I am even taking pleasure in cooking. Someone call a doctor.

Not that I’m complaining of course, I am positively revelling in my new-found serenity, it certainly makes a nice change from waking up and feeling my brain flood with reminders for jobs I don’t even want to do. So apologies to anyone who’s been thinking what a miserable cow I’ve been lately, and apologies in advance too for being back to my usual irritatingly bubbly self.

Who am I kidding? I’m not sorry. Hoorah!



  1. 17 June, 2010 / 4:41 pm

    Interesting… I had a contraceptive implant put in three years ago after DD2 was born, and confess the first few months I was a moody, miserable wreck. Husband tends to joke that it has had exactly the right contraceptive effect if abstinence is the best contraception. I’m due to have it renewed/removed/whatever at the end of August, and am wondering whether I should go for something else instead. I’ll have to show him your post – if ever there’s a good argument for him to get the snip…

    Glad to hear it’s made you happy!

    • 18 June, 2010 / 10:49 am

      Well quite – show him this and he’ll be whipping it out straight away! (The implant I mean…)

  2. 17 June, 2010 / 4:41 pm

    Eat some wedding cake, that’ll put you off “it” again …. Works on most women after all ;-)



    • 18 June, 2010 / 10:49 am

      I do like a nice bit of cake. I’m not sure it would help though.

  3. 17 June, 2010 / 5:11 pm

    Oh my god I want done of that please! Joy in cooking really, is this possible?! Enjoy it :)

    • 18 June, 2010 / 10:50 am

      AND…AND…I washed up the same evening!!

  4. 17 June, 2010 / 8:35 pm

    He he, enjoy. I had a similar moment listening to reggae in my car the other day…. The sun was shining, the music just sounded so calming, and I suddenly thought, ‘Oh god, this is really nice.’

    • 18 June, 2010 / 10:51 am

      I love those moments – just shows doesn’t it – we spend our lives striving to be thin, rich, successful blah blah and all we really need is a bit of sunshine and some good tunes :-)

  5. 17 June, 2010 / 8:53 pm

    Yet another delightful post…and look…people have returned to the comments. Life is good indeed.

  6. Sharon
    17 June, 2010 / 9:01 pm


  7. Courtney Bosch
    17 June, 2010 / 10:14 pm

    Awesome post. Its amazing what we women put our bodies through and the impact this stuff has on our psyche. I literally laughed out loud at the line about having sex with everyone you see.

    • 18 June, 2010 / 10:52 am

      It is ridiculous when you think about it isn’t it? All that disruption and I’ve actually been single for over two years anyway! Madness!

  8. 18 June, 2010 / 12:48 pm

    Wow, you sound like you are high! ;) You’re making me think perhaps I should get one just so I can get it removed….

    • 22 June, 2010 / 7:24 pm

      lol, I’m not sure it’s worth the year or so of misery beforehand!

  9. Lucy
    20 June, 2010 / 4:46 pm

    Hurrah for Jo the cock-seeking monster

    Although – washing up on the same night

    Yes ladies – TAKE THEM OUT

    I think GPs know that hormonal contraception can massively depress your emotional and sex life but are too terrified of being blamed for pregnancies if they advise women to stop taking the hormones.

    • 22 June, 2010 / 7:28 pm

      Lol… I do feel a bit like a dog on heat…

  10. 22 June, 2010 / 1:43 am

    Yay for you Jo!!!
    Never being a woman on the pill or anything else I can’t empathize with the euphoria but hey euphoria is euphoria right. Glad you’re feeling yourself again.
    I got snipped about three years ago, not so bad, and now we don’t have to worry about the oopsy baby, that and because we already have the oopsy baby, “Jackrabbit”. I dated a couple of girls on the pill and it really does affect your entire being, they should really come up with something better for all you beautiful ladies. Glad to have the old jo back, Welcome home girl!

    • 22 June, 2010 / 7:30 pm

      Thanks Dan! They really should come up with something better shouldn’t they? Either that or make all men over a certain age have the snip…

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