Why navigating life is like flying a plane

I read an analogy the other day that compared the human condition to an airplane’s flight path. It had a picture – a straight line overlaid with a wavy line, so that although both lines ended up at the same place, they only crossed briefly on certain parts of the curve. Flying a plane apparently is a constant series of adjustments; watching the monitors, being aware of conditions around you and tweaking your direction. You end up in the right place but for around 90% of the time you’re actually heading in the wrong direction.

The important thing though is that this is OK. This is a normal way to fly.

Life is like flying a plane

I loved this analogy as I’m currently coming to terms with the idea that this is also a normal way to live. It may sound a bit stupid and naive, but I’m not sure I have ever really accepted it until now. I feel like I’ve always been striving for one ideal state, and not even always the same one. Sometimes I’ve wanted simple contentment, that feeling you get occasionally when you are washing up and you look out of the window whilst drying a cup and smile, just because you feel pretty pleased with your lot. Sometimes it’s more extreme and I crave an all-absorbing happiness, an overwhelming something that comes only fleetingly and often isn’t really happiness at all. Those tend to be the times I end up doing something stupid or falling in love with someone inappropriate because I decide that the dream state is one full of intense emotions and feelings, that contentment isn’t good enough.

Now this is all well and good, except alongside that has run the idea in my mind that once you achieve whatever it is you’re striving for, that that’s it, you’ve done it, and that is how you are now going to feel forever. This approach has always worked fairly well for me as I’ve generally been a pretty cheery and optimistic person and the idea of feeling like that forever is fine.

But then what happens when suddenly you feel not so cheery? What happens when you have not just a bad day, but a bad week? A bad month even? What happens when you begin to feel like your permanent state is one of anxiety and fear?

You panic.

You panic about your inability to cope, rendering you, rather ironically, unable to cope.

You worry that you are now broken, that a run of bad days means you will never have that standing at the sink moment again. And the more you worry, the more you panic and the harder it feels to break free. I know this because earlier this year I had what I would say was probably the biggest ever swerve on my flight path and for a little while I simply let go of the controls and closed my eyes.

I feel a bit silly even writing this. I didn’t even have anything that bad happen, but it was how it made me feel that threw me and I guess we have to accept that our feelings are never silly, whatever they are.

Eventually of course my path began to correct itself naturally but then some days it would go off course again and immediately I would freak out. It has taken me a lot of swerving up and down to get used to the idea that life isn’t meant to be a straight line and that just because you feel a particular way at a particular time, doesn’t mean you are going to feel like that always.

That sounds like a ridiculous thing to only realise at 36 doesn’t it? I mean obviously on one level I did know that, and if anyone was ever upset I would tell them all of the right things, but I don’t think I had ever really learnt it. I hadn’t properly tested it out, never swerved to such an extent that I lost sight of the way back.

I am learning now though, and if anything it is making me feel more grateful for those times when everything seems right with the world. Driving across from Taunton the Langport on Friday afternoon for example, the sun setting behind me, I felt such a rush of joy that it felt like my body was physically being lifted a little. The sun was making everything in front of me a beautiful gold colour, the Somerset countryside was falling away to my right in vast and beautiful swathes and I felt awesome. I enjoyed it, knowing that it would pass but cherishing the feeling nonetheless.

And this morning when I woke up and felt a wave of nausea, a sinking feeling in my stomach and a tightening of my shoulders, I didn’t panic. I didn’t like it, but I didn’t panic. I just looked at the feelings and acknowledged them, accepted that they would pass, and went about my day. And you know what? They did pass.

Funny that.

15 Comments

  1. 8 December, 2014 / 3:02 pm

    Well now. The drive you mention is so delicious, I’m not surprised it cheered you up. And I love the smell of woodsmoke you get at this time of the year when you’re driving too. It sounds to me, by the way you’re handling everything, that you would make an excellent pilot :)

    • Jo Middleton
      Author
      9 December, 2014 / 4:03 pm

      Thanks Eleanor :-)

      You know I’ve never actually flown anything, perhaps I need to add that to my list of 40 things to do before 40??

  2. 8 December, 2014 / 3:41 pm

    It is so true that once you give in to panic it just becomes difficult to cope. I struggle quite a bit with anxiety. When I’m in it, it’s really difficult to take a step back and see the big picture. Whatever’s happening now feels like it is the big picture. That airplane analogy is very helpful.

    • Jo Middleton
      Author
      9 December, 2014 / 4:04 pm

      That’s exactly it Adele – when you’re in it, that feels like IT. It’s so hard to sit back from that.

  3. 9 December, 2014 / 11:10 am

    It is really hard but really important to be able to sit back for a second and acknowledge the feelings you’re having as normal and something that will pass. I’ve been doing this more recently too and it helps. Great post x

    • Jo Middleton
      Author
      9 December, 2014 / 4:05 pm

      Glad you like it Kathryn – you’re right, it’s having that perspective and being able to stand back from it. Easier said than done sometimes but it’s a really useful skill to master!

  4. 9 December, 2014 / 12:52 pm

    Great analogy, and at 49, I still get those panicky thoughts that I’m unrecoverably off course now and then. I also get that sinking feeling for my adult kids, so when the moments of happiness come, I don’t always fully embrace. I think that is why wine exists.

    • Jo Middleton
      Author
      9 December, 2014 / 4:05 pm

      Haha! Yes, there is always wine :-)

  5. 9 December, 2014 / 1:26 pm

    This analogy makes perfect sense and I can totally relate to everything you’ve said here. I’ve always suffered with anxiety but mine is better now that it’s ever been. The percentage of good to bad days has completely swapped around in the last few years. It is all consuming though and hard to remember any other way of thinking when you’re in it. I think acceptance is a huge part of it though. I think it’s possible to control it too, mine used to stay around for days but now I can usually shake it within a few hours. I do wish it would go away forever though x

    • Jo Middleton
      Author
      9 December, 2014 / 4:07 pm

      Sounds like you are heading in the right direction Jess – I guess it may just always come and go but knowing you can shake it off helps to break the habit – like a vicious circle but backwards and positive!

  6. 12 December, 2014 / 11:13 am

    Thanks for writing this down, I feel like I can relate to a lot of it – especially the striving for the ideal, and sometimes not even the same ideal as the one you thought you were striving for – EXHAUSTING! It took me to probably only this past year (i’m 35!) to stop, check, look around & breathe it all in – things are actually alright and perfect in a way they should be. Acknowledging all feelings is a very good tip, and one I need to do more often.

  7. 12 December, 2014 / 11:16 am

    I can totally resonate with that feeling ! I think like Adele said when you are fully in it it’s hard to see things properly. Sounds like you are doing so well though to control that panic xx

  8. 13 December, 2014 / 12:49 am

    Such a beautifully written post and I know just what you mean – I always feel like I am waiting for this contentment to come and why can I not just be content with the present!

    Laura x

  9. 13 December, 2014 / 11:47 am

    beautiful post Jo, can totally relate. I used to get so overwhelmed when I was in the midst of feeling bad. Over the years I’ve learnt to be content with where I am, embrace it and not panic!

  10. Lisa
    19 December, 2017 / 5:01 am

    Was this a video where the narrator says we should elevate our friends in a similar fashion? If we do, then they can reach their potential, and if we don’t we set them up for failure. If so, please share the link. (I was looking for it, and came across your article, which was the closest to what I was looking for.) Thanks!

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